Dear Cristina,
I have known a young man for about seven years now. I am 33 while he is 21. I had known him since he was 14. When he was in his 16th year, going on 17, some things started to occur online. He and I had gotten awfully close and I had felt for a long time that he is a gay young man and has immense feelings and love for me.
I did at one point tell him how I have felt towards him. At that point in time he wasn't prepared for such a relationship with me, even though I am an older guy.
The most recent time that he and I have had online sexual activity was back in March of 2013. To that end I really did feel as if he was really in love with me, based on his actions. Being gay myself I was comfortable with what was going on. I haven't heard from him since. So, my questions are, is he gay but doesn't know how to express it to me, just having troubles in trying to come out to me? Does he have feelings for me? And related, does he have family pressures that are preventing him from wanting to really pursue a relationship with me?
Sincerely,
Anonymous
Blessings and thank you for allowing me to answer this question.
You and your friend have a soul connection, and most likely have experienced life together in many ways in past lives. He is part of your soul group. (Individuals who come in and out of your life to help you or challenge you in this lifetime.) You were destined to meet so you could learn something about each other, and about life. This does not mean he is your soul mate or that you are destined to be together, but rather that you came into each other’s lives for a very significant purpose. You met to help each other on this path at that particular time in your lives.
You helped him reveal something about himself and he did the same. Because of him you’ve learned to love again to take a risk when it comes to love. He has learned about his own sexuality and power and to accept himself as he is. You already know deep within you, that this sort of silence he gives you is not real love. He cares and has thought of you, but I don’t see contact between you again. It is like this phase in each other’s lives is just a memory now, something to think about fondly.
He doesn’t have trouble coming out or dealing with family. He has chosen instead to explore life as it comes and to keep learning. I see him moving forward, seeing other people and experiencing his life in the way he chooses. Let go, because you’ll soon find love again in the most unlikely places. Keep yourself open to new love and new experiences. You are blessed.
Much love and light,
Cristina
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